Rebellious

I'm in the mood to talk about...personal things. Nothing in particular. Just to talk. Just to be rebellious and not give a shit :) So, this semester turned out really good. Besides political science, which I'm not going to talk about it... but it's nothing horrible. I'm in a great place in my life, but in a horrible place as well... I'm doing great in school, better with drinking, lost weight... umm have a great boyfriend, at the same time, im struggling trying to get everything together for nursing school, and getting a job before nursing school that i get health benefits b/c mine run out with my dad in 3 months and i'm on 6 different medications. What to do!? Money situation is horrible and with senior semester coming, i have no time for a job. people say just suck it up. Been there done that. It's difficult to just "suck it up" --- so I'm trying and I'll keep going on. My brother is still a drug addict and it kills me. He just lost his job, probably because of drugs. He used to be addicted to cocaine and now it's painkillers because for some reason, he can walk right into an ER and they give him a whole bottle of painkillers which last him a night. But when I went into an ER with a legitimate panic attack Id get one valium and am sent home... How does that happen? While my brother is getting more and more pills and becoming more and more dependent on drugs...again! What the hell? I just dont even know what to say about that. It's scary that i see the same drug addiction qualities in me. I have an addictive personality. It has been shown in my former love for alcohol where thats all I'd do is drink all day. Why though? Why does this happen? Why can't people just deal with life? Well, because life...it fucking sucks sometimes and thats just how it is. IT just fucking sucks. And having a pill or an alcoholic beverage, well frankly, it makes it go away. But why can't it just not hurt us? why can't it just make it go away and then we're fine and it doesn't hurt our loved ones, and our futures? But no, it kills us. It kills our families and our futures and everything in our lives. We have to deal with life, or die. Deal with it or die? And I say why!!!!!!!! It's just one of those things...suck it up they say. SUCK IT UP!

The Beginning

OK, so with the advice of fellow students and many professors, I'm starting a blog. Will they see it? Who knows. I'm thinking that this will give me a chance to talk and start some discussions. This is going to be a pretty broad blog, consisting of my own life experiences, journalism, politics, health, sports... to name a few. To give a little info on myself if anyone was wondering, I'm Cheryl, a 22-year-old fifth year journalism major at the University of South Carolina. I'm going to be starting nursing school next fall. Yes, after I get my B.A. in Journalism, I'm going to move on to something I think is more of my calling... and that's nursing. So, I will definitely be posting a lot on health issues on here. Journalism is still something I respect and love, but it is not something I think I would do my best at. Nursing is something I think will be both challenging and emotionally rewarding. It also pays better (hehe).

I'll be in senior semester at my school next year, which is a grueling (from what I've heard) semester working for the School of Journalism's newspaper The Carolina Reporter. Each couple of weeks each person will hold a different position in the newsroom, and I hear rumors that my senior semester class will be the first in the print field to even have some broadcasting involved. I'm sure I'll be writing a lot on that subject as well, as I go through the day to day of what it feels like to be a real journalist.

I'm also new to blogging. I'm used to old fashioned journaling, but this is different, so I will do my best to see what I can talk about! Wish me luck!